Wednesday, January 12, 2011

Unintentional

You hurt me. With actions. With words. Like a little imp that claws slowly but deeply inside, the pain is instant the minute it sinks its claws in, then steady as it rips it open. You would not understand even if I bothered explaining. You always think it's not big enough, impressive enough, to be justified with all the drama. But it's always the small things that matter. Always the little steps that take us somewhere we don't want to go. You've been there. I have too. I think I have always been in that place of never healing. Just the sound of your voice giving reasons strikes the emptiness in my heart. It slowly draws out every breath inside me until I am holding nothing in. I gasp. Painful to breath with my chest so full of everything I wish I don't feel. Damn you.

4 comments:

  1. mellie, this is :(... but i totally agree and understand how you feel. the little things, the little steps, those scare me, too. and these things, to some people, are nothing because they probably haven't learned from the past/experiences. :( i hope everything's okay.

    btw, you write well and i like your blog! <3

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  2. hi acey! hi mel.. hehe.. nice blog.. very simple yet full of feelings and life-driven... it takes time to heal.. just be patient... :))

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  3. @acey: thanks ace! means a lot that you were able to relate to the words and the feelings. I don't write often though. But i ought to. hehe thanks for reading!

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  4. @russ: thanks russ! for taking time to read.^^ and yes, i will remember that. It does take time to heal. always. ^_^

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